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Kamis, 14 Januari 2016

first time will always this hard.

He will always be my.. um.. like my home?
Because no matter how far I go; how long it is to going back; I will always find a way to go home. Because I know that is where I belong; he is where I belong. He is my home.

I found so many guys this past few years. I found so many reasons to create a new story with 'em. I found so many new things with this guy; also the butterflies. But, at the end of the day, I found a thousand reasons to not to. I found a million reasons to stuck with my not too happy ending. I found a billion reasons to keep re-reading my should be already ended's book. Why?

Maybe because, its my destiny.

We.. uhm I mean.. You and I will always have an unfinished business and idk but I think it called unfinished because one and many reasons that You and I already know.

I will never ever forget you. Um, I would if I could, tbh. But, the fact is, um, I couldn't. No matter how far I go or how sweet a guy treated me; I will always comparing You and Him. Comparing, f*ck! I shouldn't be like this. I should love someone the way he is; without comparing him with anyone.


I might be 20. But, when it comes to you and our story, I will forever be 15. The age when I learnt all about love, loving and be loved; when my belief was You're my future; when you taught me about life and how to be a woman.

You might be someone else's now. And I might be someone else's too, soon..

..but I know deep down in my heart, you are always be my home.